Random Thoughts

 

RANDOM THOUGHTS!

I was mopping my bedroom floor and dancing around to the shuffle I was playing. Dog Days Are Over by Florence and the Machine came on, and I just felt so much joy. Then all of these random thoughts just came rushing in. I kept mopping and thinking, and thought - you have to go to your blog and jot them down, someone will benefit, and you need to make time to write as that is my outlet - AND I MISS IT! 

1. Life is constantly changing. Being present in the moment is so valuable. Put the electronics down more and go enjoy and live life!

2. You can not change anyone, not a soul! You are responsible for how you interact with others and how you allow them to affect your emotions.  God shuts doors for a reason. Stop going back and prying them open. Sometimes it is not them, it is you.  What are you going to do about it?    

3. Personal growth and change are possible. If you are stuck in a rut, you can get out. You have to decide that you have had enough and start taking action. We are all capable of big things, but our minds like to tell us otherwise. You are enough, you always have been.  Getting help is a flex. Sometimes you have been in patterns so long that you don't know how to take that first step.  It is ok to seek outside help.           

4.  Marriage - I am not going to lie, Sean and I had a rough year communicating. We weren't even sure if we could stick it out. We have been together since I was 15, and of course, I have changed - A LOT, so has he. You should, it is life.  My mistake is that I was relying on him to "make me happy".  I think I had lost myself a little.  Look, I appreciate and respect the years we have been together and the life we created,  but at the end of the day, my peace is everything. If I am not at peace, there is a problem. You need more than love in a marriage to make it work.  We bought these relationship cards and started communicating that way first. It made you talk about things that you normally wouldn't in everyday conversations.  We started having real, honest conversations about what we both need and how we really felt. Marriage is a choice at the end of the day.  I am happy we continue to choose each other, and we are doing the work to make our marriage healthy, strong, and fun! Healthy marriages/relationships just don't happen.  It takes two people to put in the effort and work at it every single day.   

5. Christmas is coming, and I know it brings a lot of emotions for those of us who have lost loved ones.  Doris Jean LOVED all things Christmas, and I can't say in all of my excitement every year there isn't a bit of sadness in my heart when I think of my mom and dad. That is the thing about life, it is full of loss and heartbreak, not every year will look the same.  We have to choose joy. We have to choose to honor those we lost.  They would not want us stuck in grief.  I know it is hard, but you/we deserve some peace and happiness!                  

6. You are a masterpiece. Remember that! I am unique in many ways, and some people just don't get me.  That is truly their problem and none of my business.  I am over here living, loving, listening to the best playlist around, loving my family, friends, fur boys, finding joy in the little things, walking tons of miles, growing my relationship with Jesus - doing all of the things I love unapologetically! 

Thank you for reading this! I believe you are special. I believe you deserve all the good things this life has to offer. Go after it!  Treat yourself with kindness, love, and respect.

I just got a FB message just now as I am typing from my 89 year old Aunt Linda. She is the baby of my mom's sisters.  It reads: Hey you. Thinking of you today, so many awesome memories of you, I remember when you were born. You were an angel then and all these years later you are still on the top of the list. Tell me that just didn't make my day.  She is a gem and has always lived life to the fullest!  I love you Aunt Linda. 

Be BOLD!!!!